曙光

终于都累了，看到无穷无尽的子弹，
被一连串的扫射。纵使身披最厚的避弹衣，
也被伤得体无完肤，累了，所有力量传到
四肢，都像石沉大海，身体再也不听使唤。

长期的在外独自奋战，终于也得到了负效应。
爆破声此起彼落，碎片飞射，所有感觉都被
潜意识的封闭，尝试阻挡外界的不良因素。

警报响起，听不见，就像聋了似的。
再次的敲响，依然不为所动，也感觉不到。
为了抗敌，所有士兵都得上场。警报再次
不辞劳苦的猛催，声音一丝丝的传入耳内。
如梦初醒，才发现必须再次地站上沙场。

再也收不到家书，发觉原来真的好累了，
就只是一张纸都能够能让自己有所依靠。
迟迟不来的家书，担心自己被渐渐的遗忘。
再也不重要，咬紧牙关挨下去，原来不能。
原来不再是无坚不摧，只是玻璃之心。

就在彻底的放弃，交出自己的时候，
空中射出一线曙光，希望降临了...
眼泪再也不受控制的流下，才发觉原来
这就是久违了的眼泪，那个已经被抛弃了的反应，
再次苏醒。拾起掉落的枪械，决定的了！
决定勇敢的走下去，定会找到自己的天堂。

太阳撞地球

下个星期，考试正式开始，有点期待。
因为总想知道自己从上课开始到底明白了多少。
无奈天总是爱做弄人，唯有走一步见一步咯。

大学，我是不是在读大学啊？是有点疑惑，大学
都是多姿多彩的；我的却有点沉闷。所以我在怀疑
是我的大学有问题，还是过去那些说的人老点我？

长期的与外界隔绝，有点变得井底之蛙了。还好有个很好很好
的女生，说她会让我 up-to-date 而不是 “down-to-date”。

班上有个超能力小姐哦，其实不知道他算不算小姐啦~
因为她像年轻版的肥姐，所以我管她叫“大只妹”。她有什么
超能力呢？跟“沈殿霞”的名字很接近哦，就是“闪电侠”~！
为什么她既然跟我的英雄拥有同样的超能力呢？我很不爽。
可是我也无可奈何呀，天意弄人。

都说是“闪电侠”，超能力当然是快速冲射咯。
班上的常规就是会从讲师的电脑拿一个副本，方便我们
日后的温习。这些都是等讲师离开后的事。可是大只妹
就有这个能力，讲师屁股才刚离开座位，视线跟随着讲师。
突然！有股黑影“嘘！”一声，迅雷不及掩耳！就看到大只妹
屁股牢牢地粘在讲师的椅子上，沾沾自喜的拿副本。

我很幸运。因为大只妹不认识我，所以就算无意间让
她看到了我这篇，她也不会好意思向我开炮。
如果她认识我，一定会马力全开，向我冲来，把我撞在
墙上，血肉模糊。

物理的哲学，势头(momentum) = 速度(velocity) x 重量(mass)
速度之快，已经说过了，加上大如肥姐。
我又只是皮包骨一个，再用上冲力(impulsive force)原理=Force除time
滞留时间少等于 time 是微不足道 , Force保持。

所以impulsive force + momentum = 破坏力无法想象！

结论就是，她是太阳，我是地球。太阳撞地球，地球毁灭！！

不要浪费食物！

“为什么你又浪费食物？”

从小到大，都被灌输了不可以浪费食物的观念。
所以我都不浪费食物，因为这些都是奢侈的人
才能有，又不应该有的恶习。

每次看到别人吃到剩下一大堆的菜和饭，就
感到莫名的反感 ：“为什么不能吃，还要拿那么
多？难道你占有欲太强？希望可以尽量占有
所能拿到的一切？”

可是最近，就今天吧，我也有点浪费食物了。
我的内心一直挣扎，不可以浪费食物，拿了就要吃完。

良知 “嘭！” 一声，对我说“你不可以浪费食物！”

罪恶也来凑热闹 ：“你别听他的，不想吃，就丢
了吧！何必那么辛苦？”

“可是拿了不吃，很浪费啊！”

“就算他不拿，别人拿了，一样是丢掉的啦。”

“不可以！世上还有很多人都没得吃；有得吃就不要浪费！”

“你这么厉害，为什么你不吃？”

结果.....
我被赦免了....

图书馆里的小贤

小贤是学校里的一个女生，她的鼻子挺而直，双眼圆圆的，
又有一张瓜子脸。长得白白的，怪可爱。她是图书管理员，
在学校里，有职位的，像学长啊什么之类的，就需要打领带。
小贤的领带，总是挂着很多东西，走路时就会叮当地响着，
然后照光会反射。

因为她，下课总往图书馆跑，因为可以看到她。结果书卡很快
就填满了。后来跟小贤熟络了，她就喜欢白我一句

“你真的有看那么多书吗？”

我就很厚脸皮的说 “那当然！谁叫你长得好看啊？”

“你说什么？”

“没有啊（傻笑）...”

。。。。。。。。。。。。

小贤跟我读不同班，所以要见她就得死命往图书馆跑。
有一次我问她

“为什么你的领带要挂那么多东西哦？”

“因为我喜欢啊...”

“喜欢什么哦？”

“我喜欢亮闪闪和叮叮响的东西啊~”

“哦... 那你一定很喜欢看僵尸戏咯...” “为什么？”

“因为僵尸戏都有叮叮当当的声音嘛”

“傻瓜”

“是啦。被你传染的。”

后来，小贤见到我，就喜欢呼我“小傻瓜”。她都跟朋友在一起，
所以我都没敢过去，就僵硬的笑笑，然后快点转身。
往后在图书馆里，都会见她跟我瞎胡闹，荒废工作... ...


~“傻瓜！你在乱写什么？！” 不远处传来小贤的声音~

Damn it! Today is just not my lucky day!
At first I thought tomorrow will be Friday,
then I will be going home tomorrow.

I have A total hypergood mood today.
Anything bad happen, I will just let it go away.
Then until almost the end of today, I found that
I've lost my spec!! This is just not right!
My spec T_T.

I scanned through every where. Every single path
that I passed and walked by. But I've never get
any feedback from the luckiness. And my mood
just fall down to the cleft.

Called my mum, and told her about this.
I was so relief that she didn't scold me...
Thanks her... No mood to continue..
byeZ

PharmSa

What is pharmsa? I don't know...
This is what I heard from my class rap and saw
it from the t-shirt we are supposed to wear during the
pharmacy day. So, I take it as pharmacy day...

Anyway, nobody is going to care what the hell
it stands for, right? Actually I don't wanna join
the so-called pharmsa, because I really don't wanna
pay for others to come and make fool of myself.

But the director or head or whatever faculty of pharmacy
just came into our class and said that the sign up students
are very disappointing. And then it had shifted to compulsory.
Okie, fine! Then I will go...

So, I went for this pharmsa, which organized to give us (the
newcomer) an opportunity to interact with our senior.
The whole game is kinda stiff, not bored! But A total Stiff!
The attires we were informed to wear just seem didn't
fit with the game..!

Every group has to decipher the clues given which lead
us to complete the task. My injured knee just got worsen!
Eleh... Nvm, I probably not going for the next year..xD

Finally, my group beats other groups and win!!
Aye aye Captain! We're "The Duke"!!

Ok ok... What I said above isn't that important...
The most important thing is the team which
unable to finish in the time given, will be penalized!
Hoho.... Let's see how they got punished!




Hmm... And it's not really that bad... despite
some flaws... It was fun... and tiring!

Starvation!

Every weekdays, days go on without stop.
I was looking forward for every Thursday night.
Why? Because it is the beginning of the relaxing days.
Due to only one hour class for Friday, follow by Saturday and Sunday.

But maybe it's not the same circumstance for other colleagues.
We have "Today's Special" for everyday. And the special meal for
Thursday night was western food.. like chicken chop, french fried,
blah blah blah...

These are only started to give out on 7pm or after.
But people started to rush to the cafeteria. Why?
Afraid of not getting the special chop of the week.

How about me? I don't really care because I was busy in
chatting with my friend... and I would rather postpone my
dinner. Then my course-mate bumped into my msn...
And tell me today's special is western food!! Need to go earlier,
if not no chop for us already...!

Then only I remembered. Fine.. Then I ask him to go queue
up first then I will cut the queue after my bath...
Hohoho...




And Thursday night was the only night, I can see most of
the faces of the colleagues over here.

p/s: I was not that enthusiasm with western food, but I was starving... And they do provide meals other than western food. I guess people just like to be in the middle of crowd.. =D

A Call

Crap... I received a call. And I don't have it
in my contact list. So, I was wonder who is this?

When I get the call... The caller(C), Me(k)

C: "Ini Mr. Yong kaiheng?"

K: " Uh huh? Yes?"

C: "Kamu telah menang sebuah kereta!"

I was thinking what the fuck?
Am I that lucky? I win a lammy car
from nothing!!

Nono! I was thinking that
am I that lucky, i got this chance to scold on
this bastard who trying to cheat me.. Hahaha!

Then I was waiting for the chance, and he
gave up and laughed. I thought, what the fuck... Lame Liar.
He couldn't even perform a good lie.

Then I knew it was my brother...
Haha.. He called, to ask me how was I.
Hmm... It's not really a style of ours.

So, I'm very happy because he concerned
about my life over here. Ya know.. It's like
an unexpected call...

It's too bad I can't see him in Grand's
birthday. He is too busy with his assignment.
So, I will have to wait for another few months,
I guess...

Target of Khan

Can I consider me, myself, I bad luck
forever? Erh... Forever in some sort of stuff.
Everything was just fine today. And goes on as
usual.

And we have this V friend who used to skip some classes.
And he like to ask for our favor, to sign him in in
the attendance list. Then I "crowmouth", talked a lot.
I said maybe today, the lecturer Khan will check on
the attendance.

During the lecture, I was discussing with C.Sheng
about the naming of the isomer. Then this Lecturer
Khan accused me for chatting with my friend
during the class. I was okie with it, because I
wasn't chatting with my friend, so I don't
give him a damn. =P

At the end of the lecture, he said he wants to
know each of us and then started to shout out
our name. And he found out that V friend's attendance
was marked without present. OMG! See! Next time
don't "crowmouth"

And he said he will make a target with the most
suspicious in the class. He told the course rap, it must
has to do with the guys sitting at the back row.
OMG! He is not only genius in Organic and also
genius in making guess!

Since I'm not the one who signed it. I don't care.
But when I felt that I will be his "favourite"
student from today onwards. I feel Facking
No Mood! Arh!!

LEAVE ME ALONE! Doc. KHAN!!

Unite?

Check on the calendar... Hmm... 18th is
still look so far away from today. But who cares?
I'm already full loaded... Ready to shoot!
Getting to meet all my relatives, is somehow
a scenario that I'm looking forward.

The last gather was like during the CNY.
Maybe I'm that kinda stick-home type male.
Not sissy, okie? Is love home! Hahaha!

Somehow, konsortium website is flood.
I was having problem in selecting the seat
I want. Luckily KT showed up and do me a
favor... And I hope he will forget my password
which I gave him. Hehe...

God bless..! Everything goes one as my plan..

内疚

p/s:这篇有点无聊，不爽别怪我啊~！


从我拿到成绩那一天，心情都不是很好。就算看起来都
不怎么像是被成绩缠绕的样子。哈哈哈！我看我是很好的
演员吧！我知道至少在家里我是。妈从来都不需要担心我
别的事，除了健康问题。她都觉得我是最不会有什么事。
家里大小事，通常都是跟我说，我理说当然的觉得很高兴。
因为我妈就不需要担心我，为我操心。

可是，长期的掩盖我的问题，开始有点爆走。脾气自成绩
揭晓后开始暴躁... 对所有的事亦失去耐心。
每次谈到读书的事，我都显得特别没耐心。一谈到读书，
我就不自禁的想起我的成绩。结果妈说多几句，就引
来我的抱怨及搏嘴。虽然我觉得很不该，但是冲口而出
的话都是不经大脑。所以妈也开始不敢对我啰嗦。
这让我有种莫名的心痛，感觉跟妈有了无谓的间隔。

慢慢对妈的所有亦感到不满，变得自暴自弃，觉得
做什么都算了，没人会关心。很快地，读书申请被
接纳了，有股要拔腿而逃的感觉，我不希望离开。觉得
有点后悔，跟妈的关系闹得那么缰以后，还没来得及
修复好，就得离开了。

可是我已经没有时间再作任何弥补了。接下来就是
漫长的四年读书生涯，不是说没有回家，可是是十分
不足于消除那层透明的隔膜。

忙着收拾，匆忙间总会
遗漏了什么的。这时我终于发现我彻底的错了！
妈总是无怨无悔的，跑遍整个地区，填补用品
什么的，入学所需。带着我跑遍双溪大年.

看着妈为我操心，我似乎感觉到荷尔蒙，在我体内蔓延，
催促眼泪狂飙。可是我死命按住，如果我跟我妈说
我很感动，她一定有一刹那觉得我发神经了。

渐渐地，我觉得自己的牢骚是多么的渺小；
当面对妈无求回报的付出，更加是无耻可笑。
原来自以为很懂事的我其实才是最不懂事，又幼稚一个
臭小子！我已经厌倦了那种自大的自己，又自以为是。
我希望有所改变。去吧！跑吧！去追求改变吧。

When you ask for a change,
Do God gives you a "changed" you,
Or God gives you chance to change,
And you go for the chance?