好久好久，我的脑袋长期的放空。
我什么都不去想，为什么呢？
不是我不想它，而是像没有时间
让我想起我应该去想。
借口！我知道，我知道这像是借口。
但是我是说真的。短短的两个星期，
我经历很多很多的事。（至少对我来说是很多）
若是说人每经历了一个难关，
就会更茁壮地成长，我就像是营养
不良的小瓜··· 不不不，是老瓜。
因为我不觉得我成长了多少。
老师的话常常在我迷茫的时候回荡
于我的思绪 “不要让那个证明你比你想象
中的更好的机会从你手中流失”
虽然我不觉得我学到了什么，我都努力地
抓紧每个难关，熬过去。
看到了朋友的fb的帐户，从前的回忆一下子
全部都投射在我的脑海。这时我就像是个
失控了的播放机，毫无止境的翻阅着
那些好久好久都不曾碰到的回忆。
虽然那些记忆无法控制地暴走。可是
我却没有阻止它的意念，乐在其中···
我的朋友们，我知道我没有一直跟
你们保持着所谓地好朋友，知己应该
会有的联系。可是这并不代表我已经
忘记了你们。
只是在我脑海里，问题就像
是来回穿梭的车辆；你们的回忆，就站
在对面的路上的行人。被繁忙又吵杂的
车鸣和车身遮阻。无论对面的你怎么呼喊，
怎么地挥手，我都没办法看清。
很多事情都是不在你的控制范围，
你不觉得会发生的事，就莫名地发生了。
何不干脆一点的接受呢？或许它有你想象
不到的好。总之失去尝试的勇气就
失去了梦想。人生就是需要尝试新的一关，
才会比以前更精彩啊！
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
shut down
I'm really not in the mood of writing in
this blog anymore.
I know I don't have much reader, mostly are my
friends. Sorry that I feel wanna stop writing in
this blog until I'm totally recover from this
stop-writing-mood.
So, this blog will shut down until infinity date.
I don't know when, but when I'm back.
I mean back to the mood of writing, i will write again.
Hahaha... Hope by that time, it is totally a daily
update blog...
3....
2....
1....
~ SHUT DOWN ~
this blog anymore.
I know I don't have much reader, mostly are my
friends. Sorry that I feel wanna stop writing in
this blog until I'm totally recover from this
stop-writing-mood.
So, this blog will shut down until infinity date.
I don't know when, but when I'm back.
I mean back to the mood of writing, i will write again.
Hahaha... Hope by that time, it is totally a daily
update blog...
3....
2....
1....
~ SHUT DOWN ~
Monday, October 19, 2009
道歉
坐在巴士窗旁，时间滴答滴答的跑着，毫不留情地往前跑。
静静地坐着，看着雨水沿着车窗流下，听着自己的心跳。
晓新坐在巴士窗旁，看着等候自己离开的家人，不舍在脸上
表露出来。心里的惭愧急速的侵蚀整个心，懊恼于自己的懦弱，
总是无可奈何地被它控制住。
*** 在去巴士站的路上 ***
晓新开始了该死的吵架，一直埋怨着母亲的不是，
一直找着母亲的麻烦，车里的气氛僵到了极点。
天空阴沉，就好像两母子的心情。晓新放肆地发动语言
上的攻击，母亲就像个等待爆发的炸弹。一个不平复到
极点，令一个则忍耐到极点。
终于母亲再也忍受不住了，爆发，结束了所有的争吵。
可是两个人的心里都不好受。
晓新想着“这就是你要给我带回去的心情？”
毫无惭愧之意，顽固地认为自己是对的。但是他已经
很驾轻就熟的隐藏自己的不快，没有人发现任何不妥。
到了巴士站后，等待着巴士的到来。妈妈先开口打破
僵局，呼唤着他放下行李，来坐下休息。晓新的心突然
犹如钢针刺入，觉得自己的愚蠢与无知，凡事都太主观
又以自己为重，完全忽略了他人的感受。可是放不下的所谓
尊严，硬是站着不理。母亲再一次的呼唤，他心软了，开始
知道了自己的胸襟永远是那么的渺小。相较下母亲的容量是如此
的深不见底，如何地挥打出去都不会得到反弹。
他走过去，很勉为其难的放下行李，就快快地离开那边，
畏惧着看到母亲的脸，加深自己的愧疚。
巴士到了，就很快地去提起行李，然后冲上了巴士。
*** 现在 ***
滴答！
终于都到了，巴士慢慢驶开，提起无力的双手做出了
最后的道别。一路上，晓新反反复复地想着自己的幼稚，
自己的不是，可是于事无补，伤痕已经留下。握紧手心，好
像就要抓破了掌心。巴士走过不平的道路，车内晃动不已，
可是看到车窗里的影像却是如此的清晰。所发生的事历历在目，
虽说不是经过什么沧桑岁月，怎么可能忘记呢？一回想就会感觉
身在其中，重复地经历刚才的愚蠢。
晚上，晓新拿着电话，一直犹豫着，是否应该打回家？
可是要说什么呢？要怎样说呢？说得出吗？
决定了，晓新拿起电话，拨打着家里的电话。
电话的另一端传出了熟悉的声音，也是期待已久的声音。
心里的情绪全部翻滚起来，开始说些有的没的。
终于，晓新道歉了，说着自己刚才的愚昧，眼眶开始发热。
紧咬着嘴唇，希望自己不会掉泪 。当听到电话另一端，
也传来的抽泣的声音，
此刻他放开了，眼泪不停地流下... ...
p/s: 如有雷同，纯属虚构 =D
静静地坐着，看着雨水沿着车窗流下，听着自己的心跳。
晓新坐在巴士窗旁，看着等候自己离开的家人，不舍在脸上
表露出来。心里的惭愧急速的侵蚀整个心，懊恼于自己的懦弱，
总是无可奈何地被它控制住。
*** 在去巴士站的路上 ***
晓新开始了该死的吵架，一直埋怨着母亲的不是，
一直找着母亲的麻烦，车里的气氛僵到了极点。
天空阴沉，就好像两母子的心情。晓新放肆地发动语言
上的攻击，母亲就像个等待爆发的炸弹。一个不平复到
极点，令一个则忍耐到极点。
终于母亲再也忍受不住了，爆发，结束了所有的争吵。
可是两个人的心里都不好受。
晓新想着“这就是你要给我带回去的心情？”
毫无惭愧之意，顽固地认为自己是对的。但是他已经
很驾轻就熟的隐藏自己的不快，没有人发现任何不妥。
到了巴士站后，等待着巴士的到来。妈妈先开口打破
僵局，呼唤着他放下行李，来坐下休息。晓新的心突然
犹如钢针刺入，觉得自己的愚蠢与无知，凡事都太主观
又以自己为重，完全忽略了他人的感受。可是放不下的所谓
尊严，硬是站着不理。母亲再一次的呼唤，他心软了，开始
知道了自己的胸襟永远是那么的渺小。相较下母亲的容量是如此
的深不见底，如何地挥打出去都不会得到反弹。
他走过去，很勉为其难的放下行李，就快快地离开那边，
畏惧着看到母亲的脸，加深自己的愧疚。
巴士到了，就很快地去提起行李，然后冲上了巴士。
*** 现在 ***
滴答！
终于都到了，巴士慢慢驶开，提起无力的双手做出了
最后的道别。一路上，晓新反反复复地想着自己的幼稚，
自己的不是，可是于事无补，伤痕已经留下。握紧手心，好
像就要抓破了掌心。巴士走过不平的道路，车内晃动不已，
可是看到车窗里的影像却是如此的清晰。所发生的事历历在目，
虽说不是经过什么沧桑岁月，怎么可能忘记呢？一回想就会感觉
身在其中，重复地经历刚才的愚蠢。
晚上，晓新拿着电话，一直犹豫着，是否应该打回家？
可是要说什么呢？要怎样说呢？说得出吗？
决定了，晓新拿起电话，拨打着家里的电话。
电话的另一端传出了熟悉的声音，也是期待已久的声音。
心里的情绪全部翻滚起来，开始说些有的没的。
终于，晓新道歉了，说着自己刚才的愚昧，眼眶开始发热。
紧咬着嘴唇，希望自己不会掉泪 。当听到电话另一端，
也传来的抽泣的声音，
此刻他放开了，眼泪不停地流下... ...
p/s: 如有雷同，纯属虚构 =D
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Accident
Minor accident last night,
no injuries, one victim and one bastard.
Got a scratch and small hump in at the front.
That bastard was lucky because victim hit
the brake quickly.
Bastard glared at victim, wanted to convince
victim that the bastard was actually the victim.
Trap failed, and he ran away.
Mood spoiled, whatever~
I don't want to drive anymore for that day.
p/s: zero-accident record got one black spot. and mummy has to spend to fix. Sorry mummy
no injuries, one victim and one bastard.
Got a scratch and small hump in at the front.
That bastard was lucky because victim hit
the brake quickly.
Bastard glared at victim, wanted to convince
victim that the bastard was actually the victim.
Trap failed, and he ran away.
Mood spoiled, whatever~
I don't want to drive anymore for that day.
p/s: zero-accident record got one black spot. and mummy has to spend to fix. Sorry mummy
Saturday, October 3, 2009
另类的天赐
理所当然不是我这一生的第一个中秋节。
而是第一个，一个人，又在大学的第一个
中秋节。
有什么特别的感想吗？并没有，其实也挺久
没有庆祝了，所以今年没庆祝也一样。
不过就是没有看到一些中秋节应该有的
气氛，就觉得有点怪怪的，好像没有人知道
昨天就是中秋节。
虽说是一个人，但是我并不孤单。
因为你和我，我们互相共鸣。
在他乡努力的朋友，时时牵动我的思绪。
朋友的遭遇更是钩起埋葬了许久的回忆。
如果你们看到我这篇，是不是也会让你
回忆起我们当初的小插曲？我不是马英九，
我不是王力宏；但是我是我。只希望有
权利占用你记忆的小部分。
如果说我和知己拥有自己的代号；
那我就是钥匙，你就是润滑油。
润滑油的出现，即使生了锈的难题
一样可以顺利打开。可是钥匙对润滑油，
却是一无用处。有点懊恼自己的无能，
惟有心里默默亦真诚的祝福你。有需要我
的地方请敲敲我的电话，随时替你
减减压，提提你，扶着你，让你撑过去。
如果别人被赐予一部吸尘机，你却被赐予一把扫把，
不代表你不值得拥有更好的天赐，而是你有比别人
更不同的路要走，就要看你会不会走出你该有
的另一个天地。不要只顾看着前方，看看地上，
被世人唾弃的垃圾里，就会有别人不会注意到的
第二个天赐。如果是你，你应该知道这是为你
而写的吧。
而是第一个，一个人，又在大学的第一个
中秋节。
有什么特别的感想吗？并没有，其实也挺久
没有庆祝了，所以今年没庆祝也一样。
不过就是没有看到一些中秋节应该有的
气氛，就觉得有点怪怪的，好像没有人知道
昨天就是中秋节。
虽说是一个人，但是我并不孤单。
因为你和我，我们互相共鸣。
在他乡努力的朋友，时时牵动我的思绪。
朋友的遭遇更是钩起埋葬了许久的回忆。
如果你们看到我这篇，是不是也会让你
回忆起我们当初的小插曲？我不是马英九，
我不是王力宏；但是我是我。只希望有
权利占用你记忆的小部分。
如果说我和知己拥有自己的代号；
那我就是钥匙，你就是润滑油。
润滑油的出现，即使生了锈的难题
一样可以顺利打开。可是钥匙对润滑油，
却是一无用处。有点懊恼自己的无能，
惟有心里默默亦真诚的祝福你。有需要我
的地方请敲敲我的电话，随时替你
减减压，提提你，扶着你，让你撑过去。
如果别人被赐予一部吸尘机，你却被赐予一把扫把，
不代表你不值得拥有更好的天赐，而是你有比别人
更不同的路要走，就要看你会不会走出你该有
的另一个天地。不要只顾看着前方，看看地上，
被世人唾弃的垃圾里，就会有别人不会注意到的
第二个天赐。如果是你，你应该知道这是为你
而写的吧。
Friday, October 2, 2009
First Time Seriously Need Your Help! God!
I always don't believe God. Not that I don't wanna believe
in You. But I don't think I have a need from You.
But this time is different. I feel want to help.
And I felt helpless. So, I pray!
I know I'm sort of bastard, that only pray from You
when I need you. But this time, I seriously have this
urge to pray real hard. Just hope that You can spear
a little bit time. Lend out Your hand to Edmund's dad
and his family.
Please! Even when I need something, I didn't pray
this hard just to get what I want. I will accept whatever
it comes. But I really don't want my best friend to go
through this tragic. This is awful!
Please!
God Bless You, Edmund and your family.
in You. But I don't think I have a need from You.
But this time is different. I feel want to help.
And I felt helpless. So, I pray!
I know I'm sort of bastard, that only pray from You
when I need you. But this time, I seriously have this
urge to pray real hard. Just hope that You can spear
a little bit time. Lend out Your hand to Edmund's dad
and his family.
Please! Even when I need something, I didn't pray
this hard just to get what I want. I will accept whatever
it comes. But I really don't want my best friend to go
through this tragic. This is awful!
Please!
God Bless You, Edmund and your family.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Angry Earth
It's been awhile since the last English blog.
I didn't know why would I even write this blog.
I just felt that I wanted to. I have this urge to
speak out.
Back to the time when I was a kid, a real small kid I mean.
It's rarely to hear of any disaster comes upon us,
upon the earth, and the land we live on.
So, whenever there was a disaster occurring,
the first reaction we would see is as following:
"Eih! Did you hear of it that xxxx has this tsunami?"
"What? Of course I did! The first page of every newspapers."
"Do you know how many inhabitants had died?"
"Ya! It's like 400 something victims and 700 plus has not been
found!"
Up there was a conversation like 10 years ago or maybe 12 years.
*Not important though*
For present will be as follow:
"Eih! Did you hear that xxxx has this 7.6 earthquake!"
"Huh? Ooo... And then?"
"It's like thousands of people die! HELLO~!"
"Oo.. Fine, I get it.. And?"
People get immune with the frequent disaster
that occurred. When I was still a child, disaster
was like once for ten years. Now, disaster is 3 or 4 times
for a month.
It's the sign that earth has given up. The earth seems to
want a revenge. It wants human to taste the effects
we brought to it. Many people do realize the pain
we brought to earth. They have their own way to
warn others to take care of the earth. Through movies,
songs, advertisement, books and actions.
But when things come to profit, people will ignore it.
They can foresee the long term effects and the short term
benefits. How on earth people have the brain to create a
space rocket can't predict the future? They do, and they ignore it.
We couldn't help sometimes or maybe all the times.
People always get tempted by the benefits we have in front of us.
Moderation has never existed in their mind.
Mortals don't know how to have things enough,
love things enough, give things enough, dig things enough,
throw things away enough and earn things enough.
They just have the urge to fight among the other competitors
and prove they are more saint or cleverer.
Apparently, M country still couldn't help but stirring the
politics with their filthy hands. They don't even know
there might be an earthquake just after he or she won
the election. Hahaha... Then I would LOL for god sake.
Finally HE show me that HE do exist.
What I wanna say is people just have to build up
the moderation, always appreciate with what they
have already. If they do wanna explore new technology,
please do it by having a plan to maintain the destruction
they have created. Having this "enough" attitude is
a real hard thing to do, but I just want them to
learn how to have things enough in daily life.
That would be enough for me already.
I didn't know why would I even write this blog.
I just felt that I wanted to. I have this urge to
speak out.
Back to the time when I was a kid, a real small kid I mean.
It's rarely to hear of any disaster comes upon us,
upon the earth, and the land we live on.
So, whenever there was a disaster occurring,
the first reaction we would see is as following:
"Eih! Did you hear of it that xxxx has this tsunami?"
"What? Of course I did! The first page of every newspapers."
"Do you know how many inhabitants had died?"
"Ya! It's like 400 something victims and 700 plus has not been
found!"
Up there was a conversation like 10 years ago or maybe 12 years.
*Not important though*
For present will be as follow:
"Eih! Did you hear that xxxx has this 7.6 earthquake!"
"Huh? Ooo... And then?"
"It's like thousands of people die! HELLO~!"
"Oo.. Fine, I get it.. And?"
People get immune with the frequent disaster
that occurred. When I was still a child, disaster
was like once for ten years. Now, disaster is 3 or 4 times
for a month.
It's the sign that earth has given up. The earth seems to
want a revenge. It wants human to taste the effects
we brought to it. Many people do realize the pain
we brought to earth. They have their own way to
warn others to take care of the earth. Through movies,
songs, advertisement, books and actions.
But when things come to profit, people will ignore it.
They can foresee the long term effects and the short term
benefits. How on earth people have the brain to create a
space rocket can't predict the future? They do, and they ignore it.
We couldn't help sometimes or maybe all the times.
People always get tempted by the benefits we have in front of us.
Moderation has never existed in their mind.
Mortals don't know how to have things enough,
love things enough, give things enough, dig things enough,
throw things away enough and earn things enough.
They just have the urge to fight among the other competitors
and prove they are more saint or cleverer.
Apparently, M country still couldn't help but stirring the
politics with their filthy hands. They don't even know
there might be an earthquake just after he or she won
the election. Hahaha... Then I would LOL for god sake.
Finally HE show me that HE do exist.
What I wanna say is people just have to build up
the moderation, always appreciate with what they
have already. If they do wanna explore new technology,
please do it by having a plan to maintain the destruction
they have created. Having this "enough" attitude is
a real hard thing to do, but I just want them to
learn how to have things enough in daily life.
That would be enough for me already.
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